“How do you feel about me going to Afghanistan for an assignment?”
So that is how the conversation started about 6 months ago. My husband, Vic is an illustrator and now apparently a combat artist as well. He is leaving for a three-week embed with a Medevac unit in Kandahar Province, Afghanistan this Thursday.
I had not spoken to any of our grown kids about their feelings about Vic’s trip until I saw Alex, in LA about 3 weeks ago. He said he did not want Vic to go and was worried. “What if something happens to him? What if he permanently injures his drawing hand? What if the trauma he witnesses there alters him forever?” he asked. He also told me that the people in his life were curious to know what I thought about Vic going. Subtext = Why wasn’t I stopping him? Which is a fair question to ask. “Do you think I could and should stop Dad from going?” I asked. “Yes I think you could but no I don’t think you should.” And without saying anymore we both knew why I should not emotionally black mail my husband into doing what my fear would like him to do.
I am blessed to have an amazing partnership and friendship with Vic., but I do not own him. I want him to do what lights him up, adds value to planet earth and fulfills his Dharma. Vic started having kids at 23 and was then widowed for many years with 3 little boys until I got there when they were teenagers. He has spent the better part of his life being dutiful and putting everyone’s needs and desires above his own.
It is his turn.
Vic and I have spent a lot of time in the past 2 months together, traveling, painting our kitchen, seeing friends and having a ball all with the impending separation hanging above us but not between us. The thought of being without him for any period of time has made me so grateful and happy to just BE HERE NOW, in the only moment that exists. Down deep we all know this life trip is a solitary journey and if you are lucky enough to take it with someone you REALLY like, you are lucky enough.
Please visualize Vic walking off the plane on August 17th back at JFK safe and sound. I will circle back and link you up to the wonderful blogs, articles and images he creates from this adventure.
I wonder what your thoughts are on partnership vs. ownership in a marriage.
Would love to hear all about it (if nothing else DISTRACT ME PLEASE!!)
Love Love Love,